a loss

This week has been hard for me. Not that life was falling apart at every seam, but I can't shake this election. I'm so sad that Mitt lost. I've woken up with a lump in my heart every morning since the election. Mitt would have been a beacon of hope and a shining example of what a president of America should be. I know that's what I think, not necessarily the rest of America, but I think he would have done a great job. If anything, I would have liked to have seen what he could have done for the economy and being a seemingly good Mormon, I trust he is a man of principle. Just such a loss to our country. A tragic loss. It makes me want to cry sometimes.

I don't follow politics religiously and I don't know Obama's policies well enough to understand what he plans to do with America. Everyone is fearing that our country will become something it's not when he's through, but I don't know if it's going to be that bad. Not a huge fan of Obamacare and I don't think socialized medicine is the way to go, but after being in the hospital with Win a few times over the last couple of months, I'm really grateful for insurance. I would be really nervous if we didn't have it so I get that everyone should be covered, it's just how to get everyone covered fairly and without jeopardizing the quality of care one can receive in America. I don't believe in handouts either, but there are people in our country who need legitimate help. We should take care of them as a society, but I don't believe in taxing one person more than another. I'm a flat tax kind of girl. Why don't they just do that? Why is it that just because you are successful you should give more to the government? I often joke with Kent that I should be a Libertarian. Not sure if I'm that extreme, but I do not believe in big government. There should be other ways. I need to take American Heritage again. I think I would get a lot more out of it 15 years later. I'm seriously thinking about getting the textbook.

Anyway, I need to get off my tangent. It is sad to me that such a good man lost. A lost opportunity for our country.

In other news, Win developed bronchiolitis again this week and had to be hospitalized for the night. He just works too hard to breathe so they have to give him oxygen to keep his blood oxygen level up. It's sad and it makes it really stressful for me when he gets a cold. It almost always turns into a chest cold and he has a hard time breathing. The same thing happened in September (hospital stay) and again in October (no hospital stay, but lots of albuterol). I'm grateful for modern medicine and I'm happy it has helped little Win, but I wish the viruses would stay out of his lungs long enough for him to fully recover. Hard on him, hard on Mom and Dad. I started giving him vitamins today in the hopes of building his immune system. I can't keep him in a bubble, but sometimes I wish I could.

So, this week has been kind of hard. Grateful that Win is doing better though and I am inspired to retain my values and teach my children what I think makes a great nation and leader. I saw some quote about doing the little things to improve society and I can do those on a daily basis. I can be a better citizen at a local level and serve those around me, especially my little family. Life is good and will move on. All will be well.